ok, i'm getting nervous

on the way to work this morning i realized how crazy this whole baby thing is. in less than 4 months, steve and i are going to be parents and we have no idea what we're doing! when i got my drivers license i had to take classes and pass both a written and practical test. in order to inspect restaurants (yes, i use to do that) i had to graduate from college. but to deliver and raise a child, all i have to do is have sex.

we are going to be bring this little innocent being into the world and i seriously have no idea what to do. yea, i've changed diapers before and held, played and babysat babies, but raised them? fed them from my body? put them in a car seat? known when they're sick and not just frustrated? NO! we seriously have no idea what we're doing here folks. is this something you just learn along the way? i mean, we're reading books and all, but what happens when our child comes into this world and the doctor places her into our arms and walks outta the room? what do i do? parenting for dummies doesn't cover this! this whole process is absolutely crazy!

we've chosen to take a few classes. a labor class, first aid care class and a breastfeeding class so hopefully that'll help. but this is really scary. what if we screw up? what if we make the wrong decision, what if when out child gets older we screw something up and harm our relationship? what if we suck as parents? oye. there should be a screening process for parents and major classes should be required. can we count on all you guys to help us be good parents? will you help us when we have no idea what to do? this is so scary. i'm so excited to start this new journey and meet our child, but it scares the daylights out of me!