Showing posts from September, 2008

west african peanut soup

is what i made for dinner tonight and it was quite delightful. so much so, that it's topping my fav. soup list and i can't wait to make it again even with leftovers waiting for tomorrows dinner. yum. plus it was uber easy. the kicker was that steve looked at me with all seriousness and said 'i wonder what gordonramsey would think?'.

i think we're watching too much hell's kitchen and kitchen nightmares.

check out the yum yum here.

sleepy days and cranky cranksters

asher was up every 2, or less, hours last night until 3am where he slept 3 1/2. 10, 12, 2, 3, was a rough night. he was fine. he just wanted to feel secured and loved. almost as soon as he latched on, he was back to sleep. not a bad way to fall asleep really...i can understand wanting to feel that secure, that close to the one i love and know the most. but it wreaks havoc on me the next day.

being a cold night it was one of the first times we haven't had a fan going in the room. i wonder if he woke because the room was so silent. i wonder if we should keep a fan going, not only for him, but for us since it will drown out some of his noise. i didn't want him to get use to white noise, but maybe for now, it's a good thing.

he's been really sleepy and cranky the past few days...another possible sign that he may be teething. he's still happy most of the time, but there's quite a few times where he's mister crankster as well. and he still can…

mama movie

kelly and i went to see the monday movie for moms today at celebration cinema. we were the only two in the theater! if any other mama wants to go see a movie, let me know. it was fun. they show 1 movie every monday. here's the link.

before i left work, people asked if i'd be ok staying home. in fact my old boss couldn't understand why i would want to stay home with my child...which is flabbergasting to me...being able to stay at home with my child if one of the biggest blessings i could ask for. people would ask if i'd get bored or if i'd have enough to do or if i'd miss adult time...the crazy thing is that i'm more busy now, than i ever was as a working woman. asher and i have play dates and groups and meetings and stroller's crazy time. this movie thing for moms is just another wonderful thing i've found to keep me and asher social. i'm not sure how many we'll go to...but it's a nice opportunity for us to get out!…

asher week 15

dinner, a movie and last night makes two

times that is, that asher has slept from 8pm-3am. the first time i had to literally wake him from his slumber because i woke in such felt as if i had cement in my needless to say, i didn't want to wait. i needed to wake him to nurse! last night he woke at 3 by himself. it's so strange to see him sleep for so long. it's exciting, and sad, seeing him grow up so fast!

last night steve and i went on our first date since asher was born. we went to dustys cellar to celebrate our anni, and then came home to put asher to sleep before we went to see the movie ghost town. ghost town was hilarious. great film. here's the trailer.


happy anniversary baby!!! i can't believe it's been 2 years. i thank God every day that you grace and enrich my life. i look forward to spending the rest of my days with you by my side. thank you for always being my friend and comfort as well as my rock and teacher. i love you and respect you with all that i have.

tooth fairy

i think my son may be teething...the fussiness, the lack of seep, the biting of my precious parts, the constant hand in mouth and biting of mama's fingers...i can't see anything or feel anything in asher's mouth...but i'm curious...could he already be teething?

if he is, what a cool milestone for him...and a very scary one for my precious parts!

it's either another growth spurt...which is scary since he can fit into 12 month clothes! or teething...any guessers out there?

other than that...

asher rolled over yesterday! about 6 times. just to his right side. it wasn't a full roll, just half. but by the time i got the camera for documentation, he had then pushed himself perpendicular to where he originally was. too funny! he was all proud of himself. then this morning, he almost shimmied himself out of this vibe chair. by the time i woke up, he was half on, half off. guess i better start using the belty thing. he's also starting to scream laugh, so hopefu…


some nights we have a great night sleep. others, not so much. since letting asher sleep in his crib he has been able to pull 6 hours of sleep before he wakes to nurse. it's wonderful. on the nights where his first nursing is at 1am, i'm elated. i wake to nurse him feeling refreshed. it's amazing that 3 hours of solid sleep can feel so good. but then there's last night...after a wonderful nights rest on sunday, last night was crazy.

he woke for his first nursing at 10pm...he went to bed at 8...i went to bed at 9:50. i hadn't even fallen asleep! then he woke again at 12:45 and then again at 4. after nursing him at 4, he fell asleep as i was rocking him. when i went to place him in his crib, he immediately woke up and started fussing. so i brought him into bed with us to nurse and snuggle. he immediately fell asleep, but did his fuss/sleep where he flails all over the place...he's sound asleep, but i can't be when i'm being kicked and slapped…


on the way home from riv on saturday i was telling steve how i wish we had time to start/join a life group, but with our new life and asher's schedule, nights just don't work that well. i feel pretty connected these days, but there's something about a small group of women that i see on a weekly basis that appeals to me. and diving into the word with these people is just what i need. i haven't been studying lately. it's been so hard to find the time and to tell you the truth, when i have the time, it's not what i would prefer to do. i know that sounds terrible, ungrateful and selfish. but it's the truth. so a life group really appeals to me.

on sunday a newer friend of mine invited me to start a small group with her and 2 other at home mamas! isn't that sweet?!? God knew not only what i wanted but what i need and handed it to me on a silver platter. i'm pretty stoked. i get to be in a life group that happens during the day and that i can tak…

week 14

asher's down...he finally nursed and then crashed. i don't know what happened. i hope he sleeps ok tonight...

here's your weekly asher fix...week 14


my son doesn't want anything to do with me tonight. i'm crushed. i love our nighttime routine. i look forward to it all day. tonight i took a bath with him and then steve and i changed him and put him in his pj's. but as soon as i went to nurse him he went ballistic. that was around 7:20. it's 8:10 now and he's still not down. he won't nurse, he'll fuss with steve but as soon as i touch him, he goes crazy. crazy! wailing crazy. as if i'm hurting him.

i'm crushed. i know i shouldn't take it personal, but i am. i'm usually the one that can calm him down but tonight, i'm the last person he wants to see, smell, touch or be with. i'm sad.

i have a feeling that tonight will be a long, long night.


normally we'd still be at church, hanging with friends or going to the afterword. but no longer. now, if we get to stay and hear the message, in it's entirety, we're having a good night. tonight i had 2 different people get me during service...once because steve, who was with asher in the lobby, needed the pacifier. and then about 10 minutes later someone else came to tell me that 'steve says it's time to go!'.

see, we've set up this wonderful bedtime routine. it usually starts around 7:15/30ish with a diaper change and pj's and maybe a bit of quiet play, then it goes into nursing with songs, books and prayers and usually, asher's asleep in his crib by 8.

with a boy who really has taken to his bedtime routine, our lives just aren't so conducive to the 7ish service anymore. which sucks. the sat. service is our home...this is the time that best fits us and it's when our friends go..but i'm starting to wonder if we'll have to change…

it's business time baby

my friend posted this and i couldn't stop laughing...enjoy

professional pictures

asher and i had our first professional photo opt. here are 2 of my favorites....i'll post more soon. but the photographer, kristy, rocks and she's local. if you want a super sweet local photo session, get in touch with her here.

my little frenchy.

asher has a new vise. he licks everything. everything! it's hilarious. it's not a sucking thing, it's a full on lick. a toy, his shirt, my shirt...well, my anything...face, arm, name it. if you go in to try to give him a kiss, he'll turn his face with his mouth open and his tongue a flailin'! if he can reach his shirt or a toy, it's a continual lick. his tongue goes in and out and in and out, licking over and over again. if i'm holding him or burping him and his face is at my shoulder, my entire shoulder ends up wet when i set him down. it's crazy. it kinda reminds me of those annoying dogs that never stop licking you and you end up a slobbery mess...but this is my son, so he's not annoying and it ends up being a cute trait rather than a frustrating one.

anyway...just wanted to share and tell you that my boy is already trying to french everyone. watch out...if you come too close, you might get more than you really wanted!!

6 1/2 days

that's how long my son has gone without pooping. yes, pooping. apparently, this is fairly common with breastfed babies. he's done this before. once for 3 days and another for 4, but 6 1/2! he seems fine. his belly isn't distended and he's happy as a clam, but wowza! i'd be in a world of hurt!!

i took asher to the doc today because i noticed a rash on his torso on saturday morning that has hung on and actually spread a bit. nothing huge and it doesn't seem to bother him, but since i'm a bit neurotic about his health, i thought it would be good to go in.

he's fine. she thought it might be prickly heat, which is what i suspected too, but it's nice that a doc confirmed it. and she wasn't worried about his lack of pooping either, so that's nice. she also didn't ask us if we wanted to get a vaccine today, thank goodness. i wanted to finish the latest vaccine book i'm reading before talking to her about them.

we have confirmed his…

super sweet stillbirth resulution

as i posted earlier, barb byrum,our state representative, stopped by our sub a few weeks ago and i talked to her about the prevalence of still born babies and how our state doesn't truly recognize them as being born. the other day i got this email from her. how cool is this?!?!


I hope this email finds you and Asher doing well.

Per our conversation on August 20th, I wanted to let you know that yesterday, I co-sponsored a resolution that will memorialize Congress to enact H.R. 5979, The Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act.

As we discussed, the CDC collects data on stillbirths but the data is incomplete and inconsistent. I have also found that "stillbirth" has many different definitions, which makes comprehensive research into the causes and prevention of stillbirth and the creation of a standardized data collection protocol nearly impossible.

H.R. 5979, the Stillbirth Awareness and Research Act, would promote stillbirth research by standardizing the definition of st…

picasa update

i think i've figured it out. i need to go into the html code and change the height and width to 400/400. i never had to do that before, but if i don't do it now, my pictures are cut off. i've changed the last 4 weeks so far.

if you ever want to see the pictures outside of my blog, click on the 'photo's of late' tab to your left or just click here.

Week 13

for those who haven't seen the new do

i'm getting used to it. and though i still feel kinda boyish, i have to say that i love the ease of the cut. i'm showered and put together within 20 minutes...well, if i take a 10 minute shower...i still love the color and bang, but i wish i had a bit more hair on top. but again, i'm getting used to it and i even kinda like it. i just find myself trying to look more 'girlie' in clothes, makeup and accessories to compensate.

this is the cut i was going for....

this is my new do...

big boy

my 13 week old won't stop growing...his new size? 9-12 month.

this is him in a 6 month onsie.

we have to go shopping today. although we have 5 sleepers...only 1 kinda fits... such a big boy!!! he's just so tall! i think i'm going to buy 12 and 18 month sleepers. the 9 month clothes fit, but just barely. kohls, here we come!!

completely and totally in love.

sorry about all the posts today...guess i just have a lot to say...this is my last one tonight, i just had to write it down before i forget this moment.

as i was nursing asher tonight and reading him 'i love you this much', he let go with a smile and stared up at me. he then reached his hand up and touched my face. i know it sounds absolutely silly, but i swear he was trying to tell me something. there was a look in his eyes that i've never seem before and it gave me chills. i was waiting for him to start speaking to me it was that intense. for about 3 minutes he continued to stare and smile, reach up to touch my mouth or face and look at me with the most intense eyes i've ever seen in my life.

and then as quickly as it started, he went back to nursing. i want to encapsulate that feeling. that feeling of complete and total love. that feeling of wonderment and excitement. it was powerful. it almost felt as if i was looking into the eyes of God.

wanna suck face?

it sounds like my almost 13 week old son is sucking face with a lady friend up in his crib right now. it's disgusting...have you heard that sound before? the sound from couples that have obnoxiously loud and wet sucking kisses where it literally sounds as if they're trying to suck off one another's face? this is the sound coming from my sons crib.

thankfully he's just trying to suck face with his hand. i wish i could capture the sound so y'all could enjoy it. it's so loud that i'm about to go put a pacifier in his mouth! but i figure, he's fine trying to suck his digits right, i'll just let him be.

but man, it's really loud...and gross


i went to babies-r-us today to return 2 blankets. we have felt so blessed by all the gifts people send us. people we've never even met. a few weeks ago we got a few gifts from my mom-in-laws friends. none came with of the gifts were 2 blankets. we have a gazillion i thought i'd return them to babies-r-us to help purchase a convertible seat or some cool activity toys or something...but as of sept. 1, they no longer accept returns without a receipt.

if i would have gone 9 days ago, i would have been able to return it. but now, i'm stuck with 2 more blankets. it's so frustrating because i was ready to spend some major coin in that store, but because they suck, i'm not going to give them anymore of my money. i've never been particularly fond of them, but now i've had it. when i was talking to the manager, pleading my case, she was complete rude and cold, just staring at me with her eye brows raised and not saying a word. a…


some thing's going on with the picasa web slideshows. i thought it was just my ineptitude, but i see it on other peoples blogs too. it will play fine on picasa but when loaded onto a blog, pictures are cut off. i'mgetting frustrated...i think it's time to look for another photo place...any suggestions?

warning...i'm not being nice

my neighbor sucks.

right now they have their tv blaring so high that i can hear it in my living room and the husband is in his garage revving up his boy toy of a 4 wheeler over and over again for no apparent reason. it's so loud i feel as if i'm in the middle of the dang freeway.

who does that? it's 8pm. why do you need to rev anything? my child's asleep...the house across from them has a child that i know is on her way to sleep and the other next door neighbor has 2 children who are probably getting ready for sleep too.

argh...crappy neighbor. i miss the whites. they were wonderful neighbors.

motherhood guilt

sometimes i wonder if i'm a good mama. i hope i am. i try to be. but there are times, where i put him in his vibe and let him just chill so i can do what i want to do. some times i get so tired of carrying him around, entertaining him and trying to make him happy, that i resort to playing baby einstein on the computer or putting him down on his activity mat to watch the lights. i don't do it often, but tonight i did. i'm tired. today is a day i have asher from dawn to dusk. alone. steve has a certification class from 5:30-8:30 and i'm just plain tired. physically and mentally. asher was actually tired too...i put him down at 7:20 tonight.

i think it was even harder tonight since it was raining. i couldn't take him out on a walk and i know he just gets so sick of my mug and the few baby toys we have in the a night walk is always nice...i'm not sure what to do in the winter!!! i hate resorting to the swing, activity mat or baby einsteindvd…

do ya think i've grown?

asher week 4

asher week 12

asher...week 12

my boy's a sleeping fool!!

on saturday night, asher went to sleep at 9:30, woke at 2:30 to nurse...fell back asleep at 3 and woke again at 7.

last night...get this....

asher went to bed at 8 (he was exhausted) woke at 2:40! 6 hours and 40 minutes!!! i was about ready to burst. any way, he went back to sleep by 3:15 and slept until 7. he nursed and is currently alseep in his vibe chair. is this normal/ok? he has slept 11 hours and is still sleeping...and because of that, i had so much milk, i was able to pump 4 oz after he nursed! wowza!!

when we originally put him in his crib and started our bed time routine last week, all i was hoping for was a few hours of uninterrupted sleep. i feel i've done something bad in a way. i don't want him to sleep too much. i don't want him to be hungry all night. but he seems fine. i nurse him as soon as he wakes...but is 6-7 hours of continual sleep ok?

on a selfish side, i feel great. i never knew a person could feel so refreshed after sleeping 6 full hour…


asher's sitting up. not unsupported, but he loves to sit on our laps with minimal support right now. i'm about ready to go purchase a bumbo with some gift cards i got when i returned some blankets, but i thought i'd post to see if anyone had one available for us to borrow. if so, i can use the gift cards towards our convertible car seat!

i love apple...but come on!

i tripped over my mac book power cord last week and the plastic covering was pulled away a bit from the magnetic port. over the past few days it gradually got worse from normal use until yesterday when i noticed that it wouldn't continue charging for more than a few minutes and when it did work, the cord got so hot that it could have started a fire. crap!

i went online to order a new one...get this...$79.00!!! for a silly power cord...$79.00!

but what can i do. i need it. i was going to hit up the bay for one. there's a new one currently running $21.00 but it still has 3 days left in the auction...not only could it go up in price but i'd also have to wait at least a week to get it. ugh! $79 bucks for power. silly apple. i love you, but why do you have to be so darn expensive? you don't need the dough! give back to the little folks, will ya?!?!

i made a trip to best buy today and handed over $79. i wasn't happy. but i have power again. note to self: re…


so i did it. my hair is gone. more of it than expected, so i'm still unsure about it. i feel a bit boyish. but i love the color and i love the's just the length. i think in a month or so when the back has a chance to grow a bit and the top has more length to wisp away from my head, i'll like it more.

it might also just be the shock of so much change...i have very little hair on my head and what's left is magenta and it's quite a change. i may post some pictures soon once i feel a bit more comfortable about it. really, i think i just need to get over myself. i think it's just the insecurities of feeling flabby and now boyish...and it doesn't help that steve's not that fond of it...he, as i, just wishes it was longer...but it will grow. it's hair. that's what hair does.

but it's definitely different and easy and, well, i feel more edgy which is what i've always wanted...hopefully sooni'll feel girly edgy…

prayers for my hubbys jobby jobz

on wednesdaysteve was working on a ladies computer when she mentioned a new work group starting that will implement some new software coming into the hospital. she said that the job would last 3 years and although they can't guarantee you'll get your old job back, they will give you another job within the hospital making the same amount as you do now. she asked if he would be interested in a position and steve said sure.

today, someone called him for an interview. it's tomorrow at 3pm. he wasn't really looking for a new job, but it would be something different and could potentially give him some super sweet experience. he's been in the same position for 7 years because he's felt led to stay...but recently he's been feeling the nudge to look for new opportunities. this opportunity came out of nowhere.

please pray that he has clarity in what God wants him to do. pray that the interview goes well and that whatever happens, he's ok with the outcome.


what's that smell?

yesterday steve started sniffing upstairs and said, 'you smell that?'. i was clueless. he said 'i smell diapers'. me, 'really?!?!' he said 'yeah, just faintly. i think that's normal for a house with a baby though and it's not that bad'.

really?!? i don't want my house to smell like diapers! how scary. i think i keep up an ok house. i certainly don't want it to smell like poo and urine! i immediately turned on the diffuser and added lavender to it. so now maybe our house smells like lavender poo and urine...

i've gotta do something! i think i'm going to make some diaper pail deodorizers today...i hope that helps!

sleep update, dreams and hair

asher was exhausted yesterday afternoon, but he didn't want to nap so i put him in his swing. the swinging motion had him down in about 15 min. and he slept until 4...well, let me re-phrase, at 4 i turned off the swing which normally wakes him up. he kinda woke around 4:20ish, i tried to nurse him but he fell back asleep. i sat him up and he still fell asleep. it was actually a bit scary for me because for about 2 hours he wouldn't wake up. but as always he was fine. and of course after a nice calming bath and massage he was wide awake...not my plan, as i was trying to get him down! but after some lullaby renditions of smashing pumpkins, yes, the kid has good music tastes!, he started nodding off, so i nursed him and laid him down in his crib at 9pm. when steve and i went to bed at 10:30ish, he was still sound asleep. i wanted to bring him into bed with us, but i let him stay in his crib.

he woke at 12:45 to nurse! almost 4 hours!!!
he woke again @ 3:45 to nurse...not …

prayers for my hubbys jobby jobz

on wednesdaysteve was working on a ladies computer when she mentioned a new work group starting that will implement some new software coming into the hospital. she said that the job would last 3 years and although they can't guarantee you'll get your old job back, they will give you another job within the hospital making the same amount as you do now. she asked if he would be interested in a position and steve said sure.

today, someone called him for an interview. it's tomorrow at 3pm. he wasn't really looking for a new job, but it would be something different and could potentially give him some super sweet experience. he's been in the same position for 7 years because he's felt led to stay...but recently he's been feeling the nudge to look for new opportunities. this opportunity came out of nowhere.

please pray that he has clarity in what God wants him to do. pray that the interview goes well and that whatever happens, he's ok with the outcome.


sleep revisited

last night we moved asher's crib into our room. i love it in there. it gives him his space, and me, piece of mind. we're going to start off the night with him in bed with us and then move him after his first nursing, which is usually 3-4 hours in. last night is was 2 hours, but i think it was just because we we doing something new.

he actually seemed to sleep better. although he woke every 2 hours, i think it was more to be comforted, because he fell right back to sleep. he woke again at 5:30 and steve took him downstairs. he was up for about a half an hour playing with papa and then he fell back asleep in his vibe chair for another 2 hours.

i started a bedtime routine last night and i'm going to work on getting him to bed a bit sooner and watch the time better for naps. right now, it's anything goes and i think if it was a bit more structured he may sleep better at night. of course i'm not hard core scheduling but i'm shooting for naps around 10,1 an…

sleep...or lack of it

asher had another one of those nights...sleepless...which means i got very little sleep as well. he slept from 9pm-1am and was then up. all night. not up, up...but the toss and turn, fuss and kick, flail and whimper all night up. it was exhausting. i feel like such a crappy mama when i can't get my child to calm down and sleep. i know it's silly and i have no control over his sleep, but i still feel as if i'm doing something wrong.

at 4am, i had enough and put him in his crib. i thought that maybe he would calm down. maybe the roominess of his crib would be calming. it seemed to work, he slept for 2 hours...the problem was that i was a basket case. that was the first time he wasn't in bed with me. i have a video monitor and every few minutes i'd have to click on the video to make sure he was ok...that he was still tell you the truth, i'm obsessive and scared out of my mind about sids. again, i know it's silly and that i have to give…

vaccine debacle

originally steve and i decided to go with a modified, delayed vaccination schedule. we were going to start at 2 months of age with dtap...but asher's now nearly 3 months and we haven't gotten any vaccinations. when we went in for his 2 month, he had a bit of a cold so i refused to inoculate him. our doc told us that we could walk in at anytime for a vaccine. but then i talked to my friend tiffany who is really freaked out about vaccines. she told me to read 2 books.
what your doctor may not tell you about children's vaccines by stephanie cave, m.d. f.a.a.f.p.vaccines; are they really safe and effective? by neil z. millerthe stephanie cave book was a lot like the sears vaccine book with the added note that she recommends to usually only get 1 vaccine at a time. sears allows a few vaccines to go together. but, the miller book is frightening...i'm trying to take it with a grain of salt. i know there are people out there that are totally fanatical on some subjects..…