steve and i went to hear brandon play last night in east lansing. it was nice seeing and hearing him. and although i liked being outside on a beautiful night listening to some amazing blue grass, it was so hard for me.
there was a woman standing next to me that was probably 8 months preggo. she looked so cute. and as i looked around, i was amazed to see about 5 more preggo women. i kept touching the softness of my belly and holding back the tears.
but the worst part was all the kids. i'm fine with children. i love being around them, but in the mix of kids dancing to the music stood 1 girl. 3ish. totally beatnik. blonde curly hair and was wearing this curled up straw cowboy hat. she looked like such a spitfire. all i could think of was Jorai. that was how i always thought she would look like. i couldn't stop looking at her. and each time it brought tears. i had a lump in my throat the entire evening.
there was a woman standing next to me that was probably 8 months preggo. she looked so cute. and as i looked around, i was amazed to see about 5 more preggo women. i kept touching the softness of my belly and holding back the tears.
but the worst part was all the kids. i'm fine with children. i love being around them, but in the mix of kids dancing to the music stood 1 girl. 3ish. totally beatnik. blonde curly hair and was wearing this curled up straw cowboy hat. she looked like such a spitfire. all i could think of was Jorai. that was how i always thought she would look like. i couldn't stop looking at her. and each time it brought tears. i had a lump in my throat the entire evening.
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