in-between

i'm in-between sizes right now...both on my top and lower half.  it sucks. i can fit into medium pants and they fit everywhere but my lower belly.  so all day long, if i'm wearing them, i feel these little kicks and jobs right where my pants are tight.  i feel bad.  i feel like i'm cramping my kids crib. but when i go up the the large, they're pretty big.  they're comfy and roomy, but large.  so i'm in a bit of a quandary.  do i stick with the pants that look halfway decent but cramp my kids style, or, do i wear pants that are baggy and give the kid some more room?

i went big.  they're so comfortable.  i was having to change into sweats as soon as i came home to give the kid some relief, but know, kix has all the room he or she wants.  room to do flips and turn and whatever else.  they may look a bit large, but that's ok.  i'm thinking i'll probably grow into them anyway.

and then with the tops...what is it with pregnancy tops?  we all know that the girls grow substantially when pregnant!  so why do designers make everything super tight around the girls and then super loose everywhere else?  i'm starting to feel very large chested and i'm not that large. these styles just don't make you look very cute.  the girls who are tiny to begin with and carry their children in small little bumps right in front, look super cute in these clothes, but the average women who already has a few lumps and bumps in places, well, let's just say it's hard to look half way decent!  i'm glad that i'm not too vain or i'd be in big trouble!

so for now, i'm wearing tight shirts and loose pants.  i truly am a vision!  but i don't care.  12 more weeks until i get to meet this crazy kid inside of me, and all the discomfort and pain and funny looking clothes, will be nothing compared to hearing that child scream for the first time.  

off to finally get started with a little pregnancy pilates....wish me luck!  it'll be a sight i'm sure!!