bummed

so we were going to go back and talk to the dealer on monday about the car we were interested in, but then we remembered that steve had a ministry meeting, so that was out.  so, we went last night and were there until close...we had the number we were ok with...not as low we wanted...but we were ok with it.  steve wanted to give it the night and we figured that since no one else would look at it, we were the last customers, and we'd call first thing in the morning, it wouldn't be a problem...

a lady came by first thing in the morning to test it out.  by the time steve called, she was already test driving it.  she bought it.  blasted!  hindsight's 20/20 isn't it.  and though it's all for the best, it still sucks.  i wanted that car.  and there are so few to choose from in lansing...looks like we need to start traveling to look at more.  there are some in d-town and g.r. and kzoo...i'm just frustrated. 

also, i had another conversation with my doctor about some of my more 'natural' approaches to birthing...it went ok, but she's still pretty adamant about interventions that i don't want, like getting pitocin to draw my uterus back...i know it's not a huge deal, and i know she has my best interest in mind, i just get sick of hearing all the doom and gloom stuff.  i need to do more research on it. i think i have her ok with me not getting an iv...and she'll wait to clamp the cord for 'a few minutes' which i guess is better than nothing...

it's just been a challenging day for my patience and frustration. i'm emotionally drained and it's only 12ish. i would never want to insult my dr.  i truly like, respect and trust her.  i just think that dr's can be so focused on the what if's, that the natural progression and the trust in our own bodies is thrown to the wind.  and that's a bummer.  but what i need to remember is that the only thing that's truly important to me is the babies health and well-being.  as long as they don't screw with that by giving un-necessary vaccines, antibiotics or medicines, i'm fine.  if i have to take something to appease the medical staff after the baby has been born, fine.  just don't mess with my kid.  wow!  i'm already pulling the whole momma bear thing!  crazy!