alone

it's 9pm and we're alone! we're in our house and it's quiet and all ours. i know my mom in law hated to leave. this is her first grand child and she's super excited about him. but it feels so good to have my house back. i was starting to get flustered and emotional with always having someone here. i know that sounds totally selfish and bad of me to say, but it's true. i'm glad we're finally alone. i'd still love friends to come and visit, but there's something totally different about that. they leave. i don't wake up to them in my house. i don't have to cater to them and clean up after them...it's good to be alone.

i'm going to a le leche league meeting tomorrow. i'm taking asher off the blanket for 2 hours. i think he'll be fine. i'll just double dose him in the sun tomorrow. it'll be very, very nice to get out of the house!