rolling with the punches, but still bummed
today is riv's strategic planning retreat day. it's the one day each year that all of the staff and ministry leaders spend the day together. it's my first year going and i was super stoked about it. i made sure everything was ready last night so all i had to do was get dressed, eat, nurse asher and get out the door. i had the stroller in the car, the diaper bag packed, both mine and asher's outfit ready...and then some thing came over my son and he decided to stay up all night.
he went to bed early and i was so excited. he fell asleep on the papasan around 9. at 10:30, steve and i brought him upstairs and he immediately woke up. so i nursed him and he fell back asleep by 11. he woke back up at 12. i nursed him and he fell back asleep only to wake back up at 2 where he decided to stay up until 5:30ish. i brought up the vibe chair and put him in that...i'm not sure if he fell asleep or i just blocked him out until 6:!5, but i was able to get about 30 minutes of sleep in...that made a whopping 2 and a half hours. steve took him downstairs at 6:30 and brought him back up at 7:20, asleep, for him only to wake back up was soon as he walked into the bedroom. he's been up ever since...it's 10am. he must be over tired by now. i finally decided to put him in his swing and he's just started to flutter his eyes.
needless to say, i'm wrecked. 3 and a half of interrupted sleep and being sick on top of that makes one discombobulated little wife. i'm in a fog. a haze. and the biggest bummer is that i'm sitting in my house and not at the riv retreat. there was just no way that i could drive to the retreat and function all day, both participating in planning and taking care of asher. i'm just so bummed. i knw all things happen for a reason and that there must have been some reason i wasn't suppose to go this year, but i'm still bummed. and exhausted. my head feels like it's 50 lbs and my eyes are burning. and while i feel this way, my son is smiling and cooing at me. how can i be frustrated with such a happy little boy sitting next to me?
steve's coming home for lunch so i can get another hour of sleep in. what a wonderful husband i have!
i pray that the retreat is amazing. that every one is working together and thinking up huge dreams and just really coming together as one unified team. i wish i could be there guys.
he went to bed early and i was so excited. he fell asleep on the papasan around 9. at 10:30, steve and i brought him upstairs and he immediately woke up. so i nursed him and he fell back asleep by 11. he woke back up at 12. i nursed him and he fell back asleep only to wake back up at 2 where he decided to stay up until 5:30ish. i brought up the vibe chair and put him in that...i'm not sure if he fell asleep or i just blocked him out until 6:!5, but i was able to get about 30 minutes of sleep in...that made a whopping 2 and a half hours. steve took him downstairs at 6:30 and brought him back up at 7:20, asleep, for him only to wake back up was soon as he walked into the bedroom. he's been up ever since...it's 10am. he must be over tired by now. i finally decided to put him in his swing and he's just started to flutter his eyes.
needless to say, i'm wrecked. 3 and a half of interrupted sleep and being sick on top of that makes one discombobulated little wife. i'm in a fog. a haze. and the biggest bummer is that i'm sitting in my house and not at the riv retreat. there was just no way that i could drive to the retreat and function all day, both participating in planning and taking care of asher. i'm just so bummed. i knw all things happen for a reason and that there must have been some reason i wasn't suppose to go this year, but i'm still bummed. and exhausted. my head feels like it's 50 lbs and my eyes are burning. and while i feel this way, my son is smiling and cooing at me. how can i be frustrated with such a happy little boy sitting next to me?
steve's coming home for lunch so i can get another hour of sleep in. what a wonderful husband i have!
i pray that the retreat is amazing. that every one is working together and thinking up huge dreams and just really coming together as one unified team. i wish i could be there guys.
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