the dark cloud

is it bitterness? pride? is it anger? insecurity? or superiority? is it a ball of emotions or just a simple case of frustration? what ever the description, it sucks. plain and simple. the dark cloud that swoops in and destroys a seemingly lovely day simply sucks. you don't know where it comes from or how it arrived, you just wish it didn't come.

it changes your day. your outlook. it changes your mood and laughter. it makes you think about your own actions, as if you've done something wrong. you revisit and rewrite scenarios over and over in your head, as if you could change the outcome. it lingers like an unwanted guest, or more like the stank a skunk leaves, just lingering for hours, making you mad and frustrated and you just can't seem to let it all go.

dark clouds suck. i don't know what brings them or how the clouds 'cloud' your judgment and seem to take over your emotions...it reminds me of evil. i think the dark one thrives on dark clouds. he lives for them. lives for the division and yuckiness that comes with them. he laughs in victory when dark clouds enter the rooms of friends, of believers. he can taste the sadness, the bitterness, the spirit of darkness that clouds our hearts and minds. it's like venom. it infects.

i never understood these clouds. how they can take over a persons love and rational thought. life's too short to let these clouds destroy us. as much as i want to be bitter and bring the rains down to accompany the dark clouds, i need to just push away my selfish desires and instead, shine the light of Christ so bright that the dark clouds simply dissipate away.

please pray i can be light instead of rain.

Comments

ShannaKay said…
wow!! exactly how i have felt at times and you just put it into words perfectly!! yeah, so I'll be praying for you......and yes it sucks...

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