crazy thoughts

i think the lack of sleep is getting to me. lately i've been wanting to give birth again. i've been almost craving it. the whole thing. the contractions, the pressure, the pushing...but most of all the first moment that you get to look into your child's eyes, the wetness and warmth of their body against yours, their smell.

i don't think i'm ready to be pregnant again, let alone try to care for another child. asher keeps me on my toes and at a constant state of sleep deprivation, but i do want to give birth again.

i think i need more sleep!

good night.