dreamland
after a few nights of many interruptions...thank you so very much asher's new teeth, last night i got 6 straight, uninterrupted hours of slumber. sweet sleep victory. in those 6 wonderful hours though, i had some crazy intense dreams which involved giving birth, forgetting all about my lovely son and a round of tests showing i eat too much protein (which if you know me is probably not the case by any means) and too much sugar which i think we all know to be true, unfortunately with my brownie and ice-cream addictions.
last night i woke in a sweat and it took me a bit to calm down because i dreamt that i was giving birth to our third child...no i'm not pregnant!!!...but it wasn't just that i was giving birth. steve and i were both in the hospital room when all of of sudden i asked where asher was and who was watching him. then i remembered we left for the hospital while he was napping so he was probably awake in his crib screaming and wondering where his mama and papa were. guilt flowed through me and dripped from my eyes. it was horrible.
so then it got me thinking. if i get pregnant again and if i give birth like i did with asher (a whole 4 hours start to finish, but i only knew i was in labor for a whopping 2 hours and we barely made it to the hospital) what will we do with asher? will we bring him to the hospital with us and have someone meet us there? do we ask a neighbor to watch him until someone can get over to watch him. i mean literally we had about 40 minutes from the time we left our house to the time we delivered last time...if things happen that fast again, we won't have time to wait for someone to get to our house or drop off asher. i know i shouldn't be worrying about this since we're not even trying to conceive right now, but i am worrying. i've just never thought about this before.
so for all my friends out there who are pregnant and need someone to watch their child at anytime of day or night because you have to get to the hospital, call on me. i'll come pick them up or be here for the drop off...wow...that dream was scary and i don't want anyone else to be fretting over that. so call on me and don't worry about it. who know...in a year or so, i may be calling on you...very frantically!
who knew that a great night sleep could be so wonderful and so frightening at the same time!
last night i woke in a sweat and it took me a bit to calm down because i dreamt that i was giving birth to our third child...no i'm not pregnant!!!...but it wasn't just that i was giving birth. steve and i were both in the hospital room when all of of sudden i asked where asher was and who was watching him. then i remembered we left for the hospital while he was napping so he was probably awake in his crib screaming and wondering where his mama and papa were. guilt flowed through me and dripped from my eyes. it was horrible.
so then it got me thinking. if i get pregnant again and if i give birth like i did with asher (a whole 4 hours start to finish, but i only knew i was in labor for a whopping 2 hours and we barely made it to the hospital) what will we do with asher? will we bring him to the hospital with us and have someone meet us there? do we ask a neighbor to watch him until someone can get over to watch him. i mean literally we had about 40 minutes from the time we left our house to the time we delivered last time...if things happen that fast again, we won't have time to wait for someone to get to our house or drop off asher. i know i shouldn't be worrying about this since we're not even trying to conceive right now, but i am worrying. i've just never thought about this before.
so for all my friends out there who are pregnant and need someone to watch their child at anytime of day or night because you have to get to the hospital, call on me. i'll come pick them up or be here for the drop off...wow...that dream was scary and i don't want anyone else to be fretting over that. so call on me and don't worry about it. who know...in a year or so, i may be calling on you...very frantically!
who knew that a great night sleep could be so wonderful and so frightening at the same time!
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