spirit of jealousy
we went over to a friends house last sunday to meet their new baby girl. she was so tiny! but the crazy thing was that asher was smaller the day we brought him home from the hospital. she was so light. i can't even remember the last time asher was that light. being use to holding an almost 23 pounder made holding an 8 pounder feel crazy. i guess you just don't realize how fast your baby grows. it's hard to even think back to when asher was a newbie. he's growing so fast. he's almost crawling, almost walking and has such a personality it cracks me up. he let's you know when he's happy and is extremely good at letting you know when he's not.
steve held the baby first and asher was ok for the first few minutes, but then he had a conniption. he kept looking at steve and the baby and then reaching for him, crying and carrying on. when i took the baby, he did the same thing. even in steve's arms he would reach for me and scream as big crocodile tears streamed down his face. poor baby baby.
the only thing we can figure was that he was jealous of the baby. which is crazy. i wouldn't think jealously would be playing a role in his life so soon. but jealously has arrived in mass quantities. what's going to happen if i do get pregnant soon? how will asher react to another brother or sister? i think it'll be interesting to say the least.
these first 8 months have been such a joy...and the past month has been challenging watching his sin nature come into play. i can only imagine what's next...being a parent is so cool. i love watching ashers' characteristics reveal themselves.
we leave for our first family vacation on saturday. we're going to florida for a week. i'm a bit apprehensive about the plane ride and sleeping arrangements and how asher will do, but all in all, we're excited. i think it's funny that i'm apprehensive. before asher came into our lives i always said that i was going to be this uber laid back mom. which i think for the most part i am, but i'm not so much with traveling. maybe that will change after we get our first plane ride under us. anyway, i'm super excited to be in the sun and let asher enjoy the outdoors again. i'm excited to get him in the pool and let his feet sink in the sand and touch the ocean water. it'll be so much fun, i can't wait. 4 more days until sun!
steve held the baby first and asher was ok for the first few minutes, but then he had a conniption. he kept looking at steve and the baby and then reaching for him, crying and carrying on. when i took the baby, he did the same thing. even in steve's arms he would reach for me and scream as big crocodile tears streamed down his face. poor baby baby.
the only thing we can figure was that he was jealous of the baby. which is crazy. i wouldn't think jealously would be playing a role in his life so soon. but jealously has arrived in mass quantities. what's going to happen if i do get pregnant soon? how will asher react to another brother or sister? i think it'll be interesting to say the least.
these first 8 months have been such a joy...and the past month has been challenging watching his sin nature come into play. i can only imagine what's next...being a parent is so cool. i love watching ashers' characteristics reveal themselves.
we leave for our first family vacation on saturday. we're going to florida for a week. i'm a bit apprehensive about the plane ride and sleeping arrangements and how asher will do, but all in all, we're excited. i think it's funny that i'm apprehensive. before asher came into our lives i always said that i was going to be this uber laid back mom. which i think for the most part i am, but i'm not so much with traveling. maybe that will change after we get our first plane ride under us. anyway, i'm super excited to be in the sun and let asher enjoy the outdoors again. i'm excited to get him in the pool and let his feet sink in the sand and touch the ocean water. it'll be so much fun, i can't wait. 4 more days until sun!
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