uncomfortableness

have you ever been in a conversation with a group of people when someone close blurts out a comment that makes you cringe? and it not only makes you cringe but you can see the shock in other people's faces as well. as if they're thinking, did he just say what i think he said? and there's no way to cover the comment up. it's just there. lingering for all to hear. for all to know the truth.

that happened to me this weekend. i wish i could go into more detail, because it may resonate with some of you, but i can't. all i can say is that death brings the best out of some people and the worst out of others. i always thought that if i went through something super tragic, there would be certain people who would be there. this summer, i learned that what you think doesn't always happen. steve and i were amazed by the amount of support we got and continue to get from friends. but it was strange to see the people we thought would be there, weren't.

this weekend i was reminded of how distorted my view of certain people are. how i thought they were this amazing supportive, always by your side kind of person, but instead would choose a going on a trip instead of supporting someone they love though a very difficult time.

i guess it's a reminder to never put someone on a pedestal and never, never hold expectations...people are people and we all deal with hard situation differently. some choose to be amazingly supportive and loving and well, there. while others choose to leave or laugh or joke or ignore.