time management

i'm really starting to realize how difficult it can be to be a mom who gets anything done, let alone can get herself done. it seems as if the moment i get a moment to myself, i need to eat...since it's been hours. so i make something to eat, but as soon as it's done, asher's up and wants to be fed or held. so the food stays on the stove. then another naps comes and i make a mad dash to the wash or try to pick up the house only to grab a glimpse of myself in the mirror and realize how hideous i look. with my hair all matted and still in the same clothes as i was 3 days ago, asher wakes up. another feeding, another diaper change...maybe some cool awake time and then cuddle time followed by another nap...then there's a choice...do i eat, finish the laundry, pick up the house, or do something with myself? oh, wait, that was a quick nap! asher's crying again...

then with the days where i have an appointment...trying to get ready, get asher ready and get out of the house and to the appointment on time? wow. i never knew it could be so hard...i hate being late...but i'm starting to become late.

i know it'll get easier and i'll find asher's schedule and be able to intertwine it with mine, but for now, it's hard. right now i'm thinking that there's laundry upstairs to fold, but asher's downstairs...i want to bathe the poo off my child, but he's sleeping and i don't want to wake him...i did get to eat, after it sat on the stove for 45 minutes...so now, do i clean the kitchen as i wait for him to wake? bring the laundry downstairs to fold? get the bath stuff ready? i know it's just a mater of time before he wakes again...steve's at his ministry meeting and i love this alone time with asher. but it's hard to get much done. but man do i love every second.

just don't laugh at my appearance the next time you see me. just smile and tell me i look beautiful. please. if you don't, i'll probably cry!